So I just watched the movie "Up" with my husband. I know it's supposed to be an adorable Pixar animated film....but I'm telling you, it was an emotional roller coaster. For any that haven't seen it, put it in your Netflix cue now, and actually see it. I was a complete wreck for most of the movie. It makes me think about what I'm actually missing....in particular, what I'm missing because I'm spending the "best years of my life" working 80 hours a week and taking care of other people instead of myself. This really used to bother me, especially during internship. I always felt like I was missing out. Ii didn't know what I was missing out on. But I felt like there was something more that I wasn't being able to experience. Having children was always one of these things I thought I was missing out on (well that changed). Now being pregnant has really made me realize how wonderful a life I lead.
Yeah, yeah...you're all rolling you eyes and about to look at some dumb blog on celebrity wardrobes now....but I'm serious. I'm a freaking' lucky chic. I'm smart (I'm a doctor for crying out loud)....I'm healthy (some people have a really hard time conceiving for one), and I'm married to a man I love and can't wait to spend the rest of my life with. Really, with all of those things what else do you need? My husband always says that "you already have all the tools to be happy now". It's true. I think most of us just don't see that on a regular basis.
So while "everyone else" is living the high life...I won't be missing out. Work is a drag at times. But you can't buy an MD. You can't pay money to save a man's life with your bare hands. No one can take any of those experiences away from me. Someday when I'm older and have my babies, I may decide not to work a million hours a week. It won't make me a crappier surgeon, it will just make me a better person. Someone people want to be their doctor, because they can truly relate with them.
I like my life. I like the simple things we do like going to the movies and talking walks around the neighborhood. I like doing nothing at home on the weekend with my man. I'm not missing anything. Those that think I am are the one's really missing out...I win at life.
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